They're on their way to bed at last.
The day is done, they say goodnight,
and somebody turns off the light."
--Sandra Boyton, The Going to Bed Book
I started my blog a little over 8 years ago. Back then I was the mom of a toddler and a baby, simply trying to not lose my mind. Writing has always been a way for me to quiet my mind. Being a stay at home mom can be lonely. My blog was a way to communicate with the world and maintain a piece of myself. I have written about the highs and lows, the mundane. I have recorded the quips of my very verbal children. Through it all, I've tried to be paint an honest portrait of motherhood. One of the best things to come out of the blog has been a yearly book of our lives (converting the blog posts and pictures into a hardcover book).
Since the start of 2019, I've found it hard to write. My children are getting older. Motherhood has not gotten any easier, but I've wanted to maintain their right to privacy. As a result, I've been unable to share most of what has been going on in my life. When I'm not busy being a mom, I'm a teacher. I find myself walking a fine line about what is appropriate to share, especially since I teach at my kids' school. Additionally, as blogs slowly become obsolete, the platforms for converting blogs to books no longer exist in the same capacity. It's much simpler and cheaper to create an Instagram photobook.
Finding the need to constantly censor myself, my desire to write has waned (but apparently not my passive voice for all you grammar nerds). I'd like to find a new avenues for writing. I have thoughts, opinions, and stories to share. I just need to figure out how. In the meantime, putting the blog to bed frees me from the guilt that comes as each week passes and I fail to write. Santa gave me a leather journal for Christmas to encourage me to find time to write. Maybe it will be the start of something new.
Sleep well mommy blog.
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